A spontaneous decision lead me back to my blog. Saw that only one post remained. I remember I had deleted all previous posts the last time I logged in as they contained too much negativity. Pain filled my memories as I read them, as they revealed my immaturity to deal with emotions and human affairs.

I checked all the boxes, except for one, and clicked on the 'Delete' button. I kept the post titled 'Training' as it was the only one that received positive comments. A pleasant warm filled my heart as I read the encouragements left by some kindred spirits I have not met, a smile unknowingly lit on my lips.

This is what I need. Positive thoughts. Now my blog is clean as a blank slate, a life start anew. I decided to resume my writings and jot down my experiences I encounter. I hope my English will get better over time.

I am looking forward to my life at university. After I completed my National Service, I readily join the workforce and realize the importance to further my education. The fresh blood that will become the new workforce comprises mainly of university graduates, it is crucial for me to achieve a similar qualification.

I am worried about my future, as I feel that the world is progressing in a bad direction. How will the society turn out under the creation of the new generation, that seem to degrade day by day? I do not wish to contemplate the dreaded outcome any further. I envied the older generation who had crossed more than half  of their lives, that they bear no witness to that future.

But first and foremost, I intend to take control of my life and labor to the best of my abilities. Perhaps, I will be able to create an opportunity for the world to head in a better direction. My aspirations might be loft, but my determination is iron-clad. I believe that hard work will not come to naught, as my future is built on the present.

Thus, I shall complete the 100 reps of push-up and sit-up that I planned earlier.

Training

Another long drag after I last posted. Nothing much worth mentioning. My life is still the same, a straight horizontal line in a speed/time graph.

Yeah, I am still kicking alive. Mom told me months ago that I should start exercising. So I did. She said that I should take things slow, as I had not been doing any exercise for a long time. I pay heed to her advice, and follow her instructions.

She asked me to accompany her on long walks. During the routine, she asked me to do a variation of marching. "First step, you must train your legs." Mom said, "As your blood circulation is poor, doing this exercise will be a good start to improve circulation to your legs."

Invigorated with determination, I follow through. One month passed, Mom told me I had results. My swelling locating near the ankles had visible reduction of swelling. The skin had return from a faint shade of red to natural dark color. I am elated.

Mom told me I should practice calisthenics. I follow through. I focus on stretching my upper back and legs. Two weeks passed. My shoulders had lost its stiffness. For a long time, my back feel relax instead of the usual tension. My leg muscle seem to be strengthened. It will not exhaust easily.

However, there are no significant weight loss. So I ask Mom what should I do. She said, "You should work your abdomens. Do crunches with weights on your tummy. Start small, like 10kg. Do 20 times. And that is it for the day."

So, I just started on it. I will carry on forward towards my goal. Fat loss to 85kg.